Saturday, December 15, 2007

Is that hope on the horizon?

The other night, someone said to me, "This is who you are..." And they went on to describe me better than I could describe myself. There was a sort of thrill and relief that went through me.

I do not have to try to be someone I am not just because I am afraid of rejection. Because I will NEVER feel happy pretending. WOW! Sounds simple, but I assure you, it's a big breakthrough for me. More to come, I hope.

I am now done with my library job. The sweet kids gave me tons of hugs. The kindergarteners gave me a book that they made. The teachers brought me fruit and veggie trays, chips and salsa, and a gift certificate to a bookstore. I enjoyed my time there, but am happy to be done. My last formal job ended so badly (getting fired basically), so it is nice to have done well at this job and be appreciated. I know this is not a job I would want to do as my life's work and so I can move on without feeling like I "failed" or lost out in any way.

The "last day" was strenuous, and that along with the stress my body has been put through lately, I went to bed at 6 p.m. last night and slept 14 hours. I guess I needed it!

Tonight, I am SO excited because I joined the Fruitarian Fitness 90 Day Body Challenge. I want to feel fantastic again! Anyone else in?

4 comments:

luba said...

Grenmama, I am so dlad you are back! All the best to you!
For Courtney: I also live in Minneapolis, if you want to connect please send me a message at www.luba811@gmail.com

fruitlover said...

Congratulations on your job ending on a good note, and also for joining the 90 Day Challenge! We will have lots of fun there. Yes, there IS much hope! :D
Enjoy your extra sleep. ;)
Harmony

Connie said...

Good luck Marjorie, on the beginning of your new life. I hope that homeschooling is all you want it to be. It was a wonder~full experience for us. It is a decision that was worth all the sacrifices we made to do it; I believe it will be for you as well.

I know exactly what you are saying about your job, you have done a do-over and cleared all those doubts and recriminations, now go forth and conquer new vistas! :)

Much Love!
Connie

Fruit species said...

Nice raw blog! Wishing you and your family an early Merry Christmas and a happy New Year, just before I leave for my holidays.
Cheers from Fruity