Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Struggling

I have been working on a lot of personal issues and it is hard work, let me tell you!

I have been binge-ing on junk food fairly frequently and feeling generally bad about myself, which is why I haven't been posting here. But I feel like I am ready to stop feeling horrible and start feeling good again. It is AWEFUL to know what it's like to feel good, and yet to continue to make yourself feel bad. Sigh.

To add insult to injury, I have had an itchy rash all over my face and sores in the corner of my mouth for the past 4 days. Enough! Really...

There are exciting developments in other areas of my life, however. My husband has joined Path of Health and has been eating 80-10-10 raw for almost a week now. We are reading the Nonviolent Communication book Language of Compassion. We are working on our homeschooling vision as well.

And, I have been offered a job opportunity to work with my farmer friend Phil next summer. Will I do it? The successful class I had with young children in the community garden seems to be leading me to make some changes in that project as well.

Stay tuned.

6 comments:

Raw Vegan Family said...

Marjorie, I am so glad you are working things out in your own way. Please do not feel guilty, you learn from every mistake, so guilt really does not need to rear its ugly head.

Good news about your husband. That should help on many levels.

Would you please show us how to make a kitchen worm box?

Big Hugs!
Connie

Sarah said...

Hang in there Marjorie! And congrats on your DH, that is HUGE! Together you will make a much stronger team.

Christine said...

Hang in there. I just recently pulled myself back to where I needed to be.

Once I start slipping, it's that slippery slope. I have to keep myself in check all the time!

Anonymous said...

I have been raw since june, I want to believe there is hope to continue being raw. I read your blog and see there are others who are experianceing the same joy and reveliations from being raw. It is a hard road but worth every step. Don't be so hard on yourself. Non of us are perfect and besides that take a look at nature and you see imperfection all over. For a year or more before going raw I spent every night thinking about all the stupid things I have done and I came to the understanding that I really am a dumb woman. I also came to the understanding that it is really useless to ponder on our past mistakes and rerun life in that way. I was just killing myself and I truely felt dead inside. I know guilt very well. I think it is important to fight that feeling off and create that positive learning being I have found by reading your blog. You are an inspiration.

Anonymous said...

Just know that there are people out there, LIKE ME, who read your blog and are sending you big hugs!!! You are such an inspiration to me! You are human, put on your boxing gloves, and keep fighting! You will do this!

Jgunn said...

just keep on trying greenmama thats all you can do

i think thats great you have an opportunity to work on a farm next season... i dont think id have to be asked twice ! lol