Accepting Responsibility for My Happiness

"You can begin right now to feel healthy. You can begin to feel prosperous. You can begin to feel the love that's surrounding you, even if it's not there. And what will happen is that the universe will correspond to the nature of your song. The universe will correspond to the nature of that inner feeling and manifest, because that's the way you feel."

Michael Bernard Beckwith

I realize that I have been yet again falling into the pattern of focusing on how poor we are (not even true, really, based on objective criteria).

This mindset has gotten me into big trouble in the past.

For example, I convinced myself that I was fundamentally (even genetically) flawed. That I could never be patient or organized or successful at a job. That I couldn't get along with people long-term. As a result, I wasn't patient or organized or successful at a job.

I didn't really believe I could control my weight. I looked at truly healthy eating as too restrictive. I saw it as "scarcity" rather than "wealth." I punished myself with food, while calling it reward. How can a food be a reward when it hurts your stomach, makes you fat, constipates you, causes you to be achey and stiff and nasally in the morning?

Now I see that eating an abundance of fresh raw fruit and vegetables is a reward! It tastes great. It feels great.

I am not fundamentally flawed. I am surrounded by wealth and love. I CAN BE HAPPY!

Ready to Begin Living Joyfully

Chapter 9: Getting ready to Embark

As I write this, I am aware that I am healthier and fitter than I was 10 years ago. I am so thankful that I have come to this place.

But I am aware of the nagging pains, physical and emotional. I finally feel ready to fulfill my potential as a human being.

My decision to go raw was influenced by Ginger, known as RawVeganMom. I met her on SparkPeople and was drawn to her energy. She turned me on to the Secret, which led me to the teachings of Abraham through Jerry and Esther Hicks. She also turned me on to Doug Graham's 80-10-10 plan.

I began to do more research into raw and was powerfully affected by something that Nora Lenz said on her site RawSchool.com. Human beings are clearly made to eat fruit. Our teeth, our sense of smell and sight, our strong attraction to sweet tastes, our lack of strong stomach acids and the evidence from our closest non-human neighbors, the binobo monkeys--it all points to the fact that we should be eating primarily fruit, with some leaves, nuts and seeds.

I am ready to allow myself to heal. I am ready to be true to who I really am. I am ready to be healthy and in turn, happy.